Thursday, July 22, 2004

Time for a break!

Finally, yet another busy week is over.  I know some of you may be going wait, it's only Thursday, but as of tommorow morning I am leaving to go camping till the 2nd of August.  It is going to be so nice just to get away for a while, to slow down, reflect on the last few months, and just take some time away for me.  This coming weekend has me a little nervous as I am going to be meeting all of Marleah's extended family.  I know that to most people this is no big deal, but I have never meet them, and we are engaged already when I am meeting them.  It sort of seems a little backwards, but oh well here goes nothing.  Anyways, I'll let you all know the details of camping when we get back. 

Saturday, July 03, 2004


Have you ever had one of those periods where you were mad at yourself for things that you have done that you shouldn't have, or things that you haven't done that you should have. I am having one of those moments myself right now, and it really sucks. I would share the details, but I would rather not. I continually find myself in situations that I should be able to control, and make the right desicion in the moment, but am constantly finding myself unable to do so. It has even gotten to the point where I somehow manage to convince myself that it is okay even though I realize that it isn't. I wish that I could just understand why I am doing this and what I can do to stop it. If I can't then I am going to end up really hurting myself, and others. I think it is a lack of self control to a certian extent, yet at the same time, don't know how to get that control back. GRRRRRR. I wish it were easier. Sorry, I just had to vent for a bit.